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| Saturday, January 19th, 2008 | | 7:24 pm |
Musings
Anger is a powerful emotion that I've been dealing with lately. I'm not proud of it, but I'm proud of the friends I`ve made and kept over the years who have been at my side these past few weeks. I process my anger fairly well, but there is definitely room for improvement.
I've learnt that acceptance was something I couldn't absorb at all when I was younger, but am getting better at now. It's hard, but it's getting easier with time, practice and confidence.
Despite all odds, I`ve grown to have a vision for myself and the future, one that keeps changing on the surface level but has retained its core values.
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In silly and happy news, I like knitting. I`m knitting a light blue silk and mohair shawl that is drop dead delicious. I'm also mad about my niece. She`s awesome. I wonder what she'll be like when she grows up. I'm spoiling her as much as I can now with knit toys before she reaches that stage where she connects her aunt and those new toys she gets when I visit and I`ll have to limit myself to giving her presents at her birthday and Christmas. Current Mood:  tired | | Monday, January 7th, 2008 | | 5:10 pm |
Hi everyone. It's been forever, right? I miss you too ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) archdiva. Instead of whining, you can call too you know, Expand your social consciousness :P I'd like to come see you, but I need to set it up beforehand. I'm pretty ambivalent about returning to lj, I'll just take it a day at a time. I'm still in school, still knitting, still hopping to Ottawa to play with the baby. What's new with you? Gorbash | | Friday, March 23rd, 2007 | | 8:26 am |
Just to let you know, I check lj about once every two weeks at the moment. The best way to reach me is either by phone or by email at laura dot vizbara at gmail dot com. School is good, work could be better and I'm working on that. I'm possibly moving downtown either this summer or this fall, but nothing is certain, the cute boy I like is still cute, and I should really get over myself and ask him out :P, friends are good, it's warm outside, and I have a weekend of brunch, tea, knitting and studying ahead of me. I may start a knitting blog, which would surprise no one, but I want to think about it a little bit longer. ... Lately, I've been thinking a lot about letting go of things. Nothing mentally dramatic, but I think I've come to realize for myself that time allows you to reach a step you didn't foresee, where things that needed to be let go not only don't have a major impact on you anymore, but also are not taking up as much thinking time as they did before, and are on their way to be nothing more than a distant memory. Clearly, this is nothing new, but it's a comforting thought to carry around :) Big hugs, and take care everyone. Current Mood:  happy | | Wednesday, March 7th, 2007 | | 12:36 pm |
Tales from the suburbs!
Hi everyone! It's been awhile since I've posted. I've been very busy enjoying the rewards of all my hard work. Last week, I took a knitting vacation in Kanata. I was originally supposed to study, but three hours before my scheduled departure, I took apart my luggage, took every single book out, even the ones destined for leisure, and refilled all the extra space with yarn, needles and patterns. `Twas much fun, and I hope to visit my friends again very soon. It is no secret that I would one day love to do a Master's Degree at the University of Ottawa. The more I visit the area, the more I find myself at ease there. Montreal will always be home, but domestic travel being as accessible as it is, the idea of living elsewhere in Canada is not as scary as it once was. Clearly I favor Ottawa, but who knows where one will end up, right? While I was down there, my friends co-erced me into playing World of Warcraft again (ahem....encouraged.....suggested. .... All right, simply offered :P). In three days I had a level 20 Blood Elf Warlock. And now I have a three-month memebership to WoW. Now, however did that happen? ... The most important news that I have right now is that I'm still pushing forward with my plans to do a semester in Japan. After careful consideration, I think it would be better for me to spend six months studying rather than a year working there. I have been informed that even with a student visa, I would be allowed to teach English part-time. It is my opinion that a shorter stay would also be easier to handle, and I'd have much more time to focus on speaking proper japanese. Considering the average workday in Japan, I don't think I'd have the time I'd like to have actual sit-down conversations with people if I worked full-time. It's also been a dream of mine to be an exchange student, so why not try to live it while I can? That's all for me right now. I hope you are all doing well. Take care. Current Mood: mellow | | Friday, January 26th, 2007 | | 12:21 pm |
Hand-knitted items are quite the craze now.
Someone is paying me 45$ to knit them a pair of fuzzy gloves after seeing thie finished product I made for myself.
Me thinks people are crazy, but if it makes them happy, I'm happy to provide.
It's too bad hand-knitted items take so long to make, one could make a killing off of them. Ever since I was a kid, it's been a dream of mine to buy one of these. Those particular knitting machines are stupid expensive, but one could get a decent one for about 400$ CDN. If I sell enough gloves and stuff over time and put all the money aside, I'll be able to afford one!
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In other news, I've started my baby blanket over... again. Sigh. Why do I do this to myself? :P
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In yet more news, I`ve decided to leave town again for my spring break. The last time I actually took advantage of my spring break and did something other than work was back in high school. I`ve decided to learn from the folly of my younger days and take advantage of my student situation while I still have it. It is clear that I will not always have the freedom to reorganize my time to my choosing. Or maybe I will :P
Don't mind me, I'm being silly. I'm currently studying, working, finalizing the "starting a business" details, on a cv-sending spree looking for decent employment by april. Current Mood:  creative | | Friday, January 19th, 2007 | | 3:10 pm |
If you're going to the car show tomorrow at the Palais des Congrès, come say hi to me. I'll be working near the exit from 4pm to 8:30 pm. I'll be under the Léger Marketing sign with the oldest laptop you've ever seen (closed, it's three inches thick!)
Have a good weekend everyone! | | Wednesday, January 17th, 2007 | | 3:28 pm |
Insipid quizzes, part deux
Oh no! MyCupid thinks I'm boring! I think I may just roll over and die. Le Sigh. And I was so hoping to date everyone on the front page. Waa. What am I ever to do? Current Mood:  devastated. Totally :P | | Tuesday, January 16th, 2007 | | 9:56 am |
Ah, so Sasha Baron Coen did indeed win an award for Best Actor in a comedy or musical.
There was a moment of hesitation where I, and I'm sure many others, wondered if he would accept the award as Borat or as himself. To my surprise, he chose himself.
He thanked his 300-pound costar, for he claims that without him, he would never have won this award. He described what it was like when his costar's dangled his "globes" in front of his face, as well as when his costar sat on him. He claims that in those moments, he thought, "I'd better damn well win an award for this."
Good times, I think :) Gotta run! | | Tuesday, January 9th, 2007 | | 5:11 pm |
A teacher who understands my wounded researcher heart...
In an email, she writes: " All reports from students should be in by now. For... desperate cases, please contact the T.A." I almost became one of those desperate cases (in reference to a non-working partner). A lesson gained is a lesson learnt. Three cheers towards my new semester! | | 12:09 pm |
With hard work comes rewards. A New Year, a new reward!
Hi everyone.
After about a year of teaching English privately, I've decided to focus a bit more of my time on it. I'll only be taking four classes this semester, and will take summer classes to advance my degree at the speed I want. I'm currently researching different banks to see what would be the best fit for a small business. Friends of mine were satisfied with the service they got with the Royal Bank, but I despise their non-existing interest. ING is very attractive with it's 4.3%, but I consider their statement of`"no service fees" false advertising because they charge 10$ to withdraw money. Why would anyone think that a withdrawal fee isn't a service charge? I like their idea of free banking, but I don't SEE it as being free. I would consider opening a savings account with them, but not a business one.
The BDC has some interesting options available, and I want to find out more about them. I'm a little concerned because they're not a financial institution, but I'm convinced that that's only a preconception of mine doing the talking.
My plan to Japan is still on track. Over the next year, I'll need to get certified in Toronto, so a trip there is in the works. I've joined a japanese-english discussion group Thursday evenings in the plateau to work on my limitations when it comes to communicating in japanese. So far, I've learnt that the japanese really love our "home dramas", aka soap operas.
I also have about a gazillion other major plans whirling through my head, but that's nothing new. Eventually they'll sort themselves out on their own.
I know this will be a good year. I want it to be, and I'm going to make it happen.
I've come across a wonderful italian ditty by Marco Masini that I'll be directing to all those who told me I wasn't good or smart enough and would never make anything of myself: Vaffanculo! I was shocked the first time I heard it, and then I learnt to smile to it :) Current Mood: creative | | Sunday, January 7th, 2007 | | 11:07 pm |
Why MySpace quizzes are not to be trusted... come to think of it, why quizzes are a dumb all around.
| What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract geeks! Your stunning intellect and love of sci-fi and video games allures the geeks like nothing else. Maybe it is the sparkle in your eye that makes them want to text you, who knows. Geeks make good partners, but tend to be arguementative. If you are a TRUE geek magnet, you will know if that was spelled correctly, and actually care. If it is a bad-boy/bad-girl you are seeking, you are barking up the wrong tree, unless they are just 'bad' behind a PS2 console. | | You attract artsy people! | | | You attract Yuppies! | | | You attract unstable people! | | | You attract rednecks! | | | You attract models! | |
| | Friday, December 29th, 2006 | | 1:33 pm |
Quotes from work
A co-worker brought her seven-year old daughter to work:
''Mom, do you have to be eighteen to be able to have children?''
- ''No dear, you can be older.'' Current Mood: amused | | Thursday, December 28th, 2006 | | 1:06 pm |
I am highly amused that BORAT: CULTURAL LEARNINGS OF AMERICA FOR MAKE BENEFIT GLORIOUS NATION OF KAZAKHSTAN
has been nominated for a Golden Globe for the Best Motion Picture in the Comedy or Musical category, and that APOCALYPTO (USA)
has been nominated for the same award in the Foreign Language Film Category
It's hilarious, aside from the fact that Borat was nominated at all, because there are a minimum of three languages tossed about in that movie, English notwithstanding (for those who thought that the language of Kazakhstan sounded awfully like russian, and wondered why everything was written using the syrillic alphabet, you were not alone :), and really, just read the bloody title of the movie out loud.
I'm not really sure I like the idea that Sasha Coen was nominated for Best Actor, but it would be outrageously funny if he won. I'd half-expect him to take a dump on stage. Or at least run around naked.
It's too bad they didn't continue the joke and nominate the movie for best (inexistant) screenplay.
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In news about me, I'm working, planning trouble for my friends this New Year's eve, flirting with a cute boy and skipping town. I would love to send out postcards from both Washington and New York. Please send me your adress if you'd like to be showered with US of A goodness. you may send your addy to my email at laura (dot) vizbara @gmail.com | | Sunday, December 24th, 2006 | | 7:22 pm |
| | Thursday, December 21st, 2006 | | 2:04 pm |
I love thinking. It's the best gift my brain ever gave me. I currently work for Leger Marketing. When I first came here, it was to escape a student job that treated its employees terribly. I thought I'd only stay here for a few months until I finished my geology degree and went off to Iqualajuaq or Yellowknife to prospect for ore deposits until the day I died. Then something happened. I found the desire to work my ass off, make mistakes and learn from them with the help of others more experienced than me. I learnt about business straight from the mouth of the president of the company. I learn the pros and cons of going into business, and the importance of risk management. I learnt that greed will send the company staight to the shitter. I learnt that success is not bought or sold or defined by prestige, but earnt, and that making money doesn't necessitate the selling of your soul or neglecting the well-being of your employees. On the contrary, you'll feel more successful and better about yourself if not only you work for the client, but work for yourself, and leave your employees enough maneuvering room to do the same. I am very much in love with the idea that teamwork can be achieved between client and contractor. It means that to a certain extent, you do free work, but if you're doing what you want, then you won't feel like you're sacrificing anything. There is no price for the high that is the thirst for knowledge. There's the saying that the best things in life are free. I think there's more to it. I think things like success are free after you've earnt them. I also learnt that those who say they have trouble relying on others are the ones who need to rely on others the most, and need a 2 by 4 to be taken to their head to get them off their high horse. Being in a supportive role can make you infaillable to your superiors. By learning what they need to get done, and getting it done yourself, you free up some of their time to allow them to tackle more pressing matters, and at the same time, allow them the peace of mind that comes with trusting that someone's doing a good job (not THEIR job, but a good job). In a good situation, by helping, you'll be working on things you love to do anyway, so you'll be happy and also have the peace of mind that comes with doing a good job :). There is a lot of personal power obtained by earning trust. It's a question of confidence, conviction and going after you want, and letting no one tell you that you can't have it. I want to write more about this. This is just a start to all the ideas running through my head. The issue I'm tackling right now (have been tackling for a while and will probably have to tackle for a while longer :) is motivation. I need to kick myself in the ass on a fairly regular basis. I don't think I need help with that, per se, since the work is getting done, but it's nice to feel supported by friends who are proud of me and remind me of the rewards of hard work. Emile Zola said that the one's own happiness can be found in the happiness of many. It's important to surround yourself with people who are on top of their game and happy in their situation. They're easier to find if you're one of them yourself. This is achievable, and it's a wonderful goal to have. | | Monday, December 18th, 2006 | | 10:29 pm |
Free is spelt FWEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
I'm free to plan my trips! I'm free to see people! I'm free to see friends in Ontario and spend ludicrous amounts of pennies on phone calls to them! I'm free to drag my knitting around in my bag, as my books won't be taking up space there for the next few weeks! I'm free! FREE! I'm free to ponder why final exams make me sad because they signify the end of the course, realize that I really should want to enjoy my vacation time, and take it easy with the learning this vacation. There'll be time for that. There always is. But now it's Guinness time! GUINNESS GUINNESS GUINNESS! I'd be having one right now, but I need to be at work early tomorrow. I did have half a glass of wine earlier on today though, so you see, the party in my head has already started :) And now to bed. The lady is tired :) Current Mood:  is WHEEE a mood? | | 4:11 pm |
| | Sunday, December 17th, 2006 | | 2:16 pm |
It's a rant. So of course, I start of completely irritated, and end up completely giddy.
Long live change. I have decided that shitty ass research partners are a very good reason to work hard and graduate and go work with people who have made a career out of research. Or something else. I think I've discovered that the true job market, not the current one I'm in, might just have become significantly more attractive in my mind. Researchers who sit on their ass and hand in bullshit slapped-together assignments do not get far. For they are funded, and the funders have a good sense of money and what's happening to it. Ah, capitalism, if only you could make all the lazy ass asses out there see what I see in you. I'm half-kidding. .... This guy's attitude, although it's seriously pissing me off, is not worth any more irritation. I finished off my part, will slap it with his, and whatever. I'm still getting an A. My lab partner is doing well too, and she doesn't care, so I think I'll follow her example. I'll go work on something for me now, and let go of my irritability. Studying Italian is fun. So is planning my trip...I've finally convinced my buddy that we really should go for six days, because we can, and student hostels are cheap, and we're only young once and all that stuff :) Wee! Giddy! Current Mood:  irritated | | Wednesday, December 13th, 2006 | | 11:32 am |
What I want for Christmas this year.
 This year, I decided to travel around a bit during the holidays. I'll be going to New York, Baltimore and Washington (1 trip) followed by a trip to Shawville, On (1 more trip) and another one in Kanata (yet one more), so I won't be buying really really cool things like this for me. But it's fun to see what's out there, and perhaps it'll inspire you to get this for someone in your family who always has the sniffles. | | Tuesday, December 12th, 2006 | | 12:27 pm |
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